How Much I Yet Have To Learn

I got not enough time to complete my life having to worry one day after another about wether or not my dad might loss the home I celebrated my communion and my birthday parties till I was 8 years old. Well, on my birthday he's supposed to loose the house on my birthday. Well, isn't that the best thing that could of happened. I see him struggle and struggle living each paycheck by paycheck and keep on telling myself I want to help but really there is nothing I could do. My mother I blame since she receives almost 50% of my dads paycheck towards her pathetic spousal support. I get no child support, yet my dad has not a single dime to his name and my mother, owns hundreds of thousands of dollars and could always sleep at night knowing that, neither of her children will ever go to college because we don't have the funding ourselves and knowing that nobody is willing to help with finical aide to actually go to college. I want to be a teacher so bad so that I could help someone one day see their true potential. I had to watch my dad cry today as he talks about how when he dies, he won't have nothing to give his kids and that he feels that his job as a father is a failure. I see him as someone that is getting hurt and not a failure. The failure I see is the people like my mother staying at home collecting unemployment and spousal support while everyone else has to work they're asses off to make sure she gets that money each month with the money she already has. I'm not going to college because I wanted to use my inheritance from my desist  grandmother to go to college but my mother and godmother refuse for me to get anything or any help to go to college. I'm actually looking for a new job that way when next year comes I might have enough saved to go to college. Honestly, people go through worst in this world but for me, I'm unfamiliar with any of this and it makes me feel lost and confused. I honestly don't know what to say or do in order to make things any better. I'm going to have to say goodbye to my whole entire past and all the memories that happened in that house to have to pass it again soon and know that I won't be welcomed in it anymore because it belongs to someone else. And also now I have to find a good home for my parakeets since I can't keep them here with me at my grandparents house because my grandpa is allergic to them and i've had them for such a long time and it hurts to have to give so much away. If anyone knows how to help me deal with this just go ahead and shot out some ideas. Oh also, when I turn 18, on October 3rd my mother is going to court to try to get even more from my dad. Honestly, do you think it is wrong to disown your own mother for causing a lot of this? Cause when I turn 18, I'm going to take legal action and take her to court to get my money so then I could go to college. Well, I ought to go to bed since I got work tomorrow morning at 10 am so I'll be back tomorrow. Goodnight or good morning  or good afternoon everybody.